Debt.

The past couple of days have been tough.
To be quite honest, I am depressed about a lot of things.  My social life is practically doesn't exist and that is tough because I went from living with my best friends and my boyfriend right around the corner to living with my 14 year old sister and parents.  It is a big difference.
Also, my finances are FUCKED to put it bluntly.  I am afraid that I am not going to meet my goal this month because I can barely afford to pay for my monthly bills.  WTF?  It seems that no matter how many jobs I work or how many hours I put in or the fact that I don't spend money on myself EVER I can never get ahead.
None of my Ebay items sold.  I could've really used the $400 from the flute or french horn!
I am wiped out, back at square one, and pissed about it.  Thank GOD my new jobs is going well.  The reason I like it is because I'm with PEOPLE!!!!  My own age.  Socializing.  And hopefully money.

The acting career seems to be the farthest thing from my mind right now.  How can I afford to get headshots, gas for auditions and move to LA if I can't afford my bills while I live at home.

I went out last night and spent $1 on a coat check tip.  I got to see some friends and it was so worth it.  I was in a great mood this morning, until I looked at my bills.  GARRRRRR.

So I have karate tonight and maybe that will help.  SOMEDAY I WILL BE UNSTUCK AND UNTRAPPED and this will have been a great learning experience.

Until then... FML.

Paused.

My life is paused for a second, thank God.
Yesterday was madness.  Up at 6:45am and an hour break at 1:30 and then another 8 hours of work after that... UGH!  Crazy.  I thought my feet were going to fall off.
Then I had to go take care of the animals and house sit :(  I can't wait to sleep in my own bed!!!
This morning I had a few minutes to get ready and then it was on the road again!  2 hours both ways and I am POOPED!
Then I spend the rest of the day laying on the couch and watching TV.  Cause I needed too... and tomorrow that madness starts again.

WOO LIVING THE DREAM!

Tired

Today was a bad day.
I just went to work... I worked on Wonderland for a few minutes...

I hope someday this is all worth it.

Monay

Today I made me some money.
Well first I woke up and went to pull some drops for Mr. Toad, always a good time.
Then it was "work."  And by work I mean nannying... Nannying is sometimes super hard (dirty diapers, snot, crying) and sometimes it is like it was today.
I braided Ella's hair.  It looked awesome.  Fancy hair makes everyone look amazing.  Then, we had some food and went to see Yogi Bear which wasn't too bad.  Then, to the mall for smoothies and playing on the indoor playground.  I got to sit and chillax.  After, home and I leave for my other job...
House sitting.
Aka watching cable, raiding the fridge, and doing nothing and getting paid.
Today is a good day :)

Big audition this Sunday!!!!  Whoop whoop!!!!

KEEAH!

Karate makes LIFE BETTER.
Interesting day today.  This morning I had to pull drops for my Mom's show.  Mom is a director and her kids play opened this morning.  She had no extra crew so I was "hired" (aka FORCED) to pull the drops and the curtain.  Which I have never done before in my life.  And the first time I ever did it was today, during the show.
WTF?
This is my life.
The only snafu was that I apparently don't pull fast enough, but everything opened and closed and went up and down good enough.  The kids didn't notice.
There is a little girl in the show who is hilarious.  Her line is supposed to be "I have a canary" and she dances around the stage going "I have a canary, I have a canary, I have a canary and his name is KEEEEEEEEVIN!!!!!!"
We don't  know how she comes up with it, but it's pretty funny.

Slow day today, just watched some TV and went to work and QUIT ugh it was terrible but it had to be done.  I need some flexibility so I can actually go to auditions.
Then I went to karate which was awesome.  I love doing it and punching and kicking and I can feel myself getting better.  It is also nice to have someone basically forcing me to workout twice a week.

And now I am here, showered, happy, living life, and looking forward.  It is hard to do what I do, and sometimes I get REALLY DEPRESSED and have a lot of self doubt.  You have to take it day by day.  Today was a good day.
Win :)

Mary Girard

Some exciting clips from "The Insanity of Mary Girard" directed by Marcus Laban

Cray Cray

AKA Crazy.  Thanks to Khloe Kardashian for that saying.

And that is how my life has been... crazy!!!!!  I worked all weekend, Fri/Sat/Sun.  Sunday was NEW JOB which I actually really enjoyed :) Hopefully waitressing goes well for me!

Monday I put in my 2 weeks at the go-kart place and then found out I was locked out of my car.  How embarrassing.  You know your family is poor when you drive a car that has a key for the ignition and another key to lock the doors.  Meh.

So lets see what I have been doing.  I worked on Wonderland a bit.  I went to a voice lesson.  And this weekend I didn't do anything but work.  Oops!!!

I guess working is contributing to my career.  MEH.

I love the rain... "When I think about rain I think about singing, when I think about singing it's a heavenly tune, when I think about heaven I think about angels, when I think about angels I think about you!" :)
Work all week and weekend.  Saving up my money so I can MOVE TO L.A. AND GET THIS SHIZNIT STARTED!!!!!
Keeping my chin up.  MEHHHHHRRHHHH
Fo Real.

Working... Actress?

I got the job!
I start Sunday, at 8am... which means I am officially working 11 days in a row.  Then a one day break and another week of at least 9 hour days.
Working is happening.
Acting, not so much... Just the short and the audition I'm getting ready for.  Right now it seems like money is the key factor in my life.  Hopefully waitressing pays the bills.

What a cliche.

I hate long distance relationships, just saying.
Especially when I have one with my BEST FRIEND OF ALL TIME!!!  Netty is my lady soulmate and I hate that she lives 5 hours away :( boo.

Today I worked, then worked, and then I had to take care of my sick dog which really put a wrench in my plans for the night.  When I don't follow my daily schedule and get my stuff done I am not happy.  Luckily, today was chill so there wasn't much to do, but I didn't accomplish too much and I didn't get to relax which means the next couple weeks is gonna be annoying.  I can't wait to have A WEEKEND AGAIN!!!  Or to work all the time but to do something I love.

Siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh.
It will be worth it in the end.
Man check out these ups and downs.  THANK GOD FOR THE WARM that's helping a lot :)
I'M JUST BUMMED I HAVE TO WORK SO MUCH!  Technically I am working 5 jobs right now JUST SAYIN!!!!!
If that's not dedication I don't know what is.

HAPPY DAY

WOW!

What a difference a day can make.  And a good night of sleep!
Yesterday I was feeling yucky so I went to bed and got over it.  I woke up this morning and said to myself GOOD MORNING WORLD TODAY WILL BE A GREAT DAY!
And it was.
First, I slept in... which means getting up at 9am lol.  Then I worked for a bit, did laundry, and updated all my websites.  I read some of Donald Trump's book and made a delicious treat.
12 ounces of chocolate chips and 6 ounces of butterscotch chips melted together.  Mix in 12 ounces of chow mein noodles and scoop into little piles.  When they harden, eat them, delicious!!!!!!!!!!  Crunchy and chocolatey and addicting.
Then I didn't have to work, but since I got called in they paid me for the day!  I went secret shopping and got some Rockstar YUM and Four Loko... Which I'm only trying because of the media hype and it getting banned, funny how that works.
I came home and made myself a delicious hamburger and then went to karate and kicked some booty!  We learned take downs today, it was sweet.
I got home and went for a walk with Daddy and puppy, today was such a beautiful day I love the birds and the sunshine and driving with the window down.

What a great day.

I also heard this song for the first time today and really liked it:
Yeah I’ve done some pretty stupid things but hey
I’m a little bit harder and
A whole lot smarter
That’s how I got to be this way
-Justin Moore

Mistakes make us who we are and I have definitely learned some lessons in my life.  But today, everything seems pretty great so it's not all that bad.

Tomorrow is gonna be a chill day which is awesome!  Gotta let yourself relax every once and awhile!!!!

"There is no magic in practice." -Sensei Steve

I'm singing as much as I can in my high voice, getting ready for next month!  Practice makes perfect!
Smile :)
It's always easier to tell someone else, and harder to take your own advice:  your thoughts and your attitude are how your life is going to be.  YOU have the power to change your day and your mind.  SMILE!
I'm gonna smile and have a GREAT day tomorrow!

Half Lazy.

Today was a weird day.
I say that because I got up at 8am and drove downtown and had an AMAZING voice lesson.
When I say amazing I mean it.  My coach led me through some exercises and then told me I had been singing too low all my life and I should sing higher-with the right coaching I could be a soprano.
Then she gave me a few technique tips, which I have heard all my life but she really coached me and all of a sudden I was singing like I've never sang before.  There are a few notes-right in the mezzo range-that I could sing amazingly.  They were literally bursting out of my head, it was dizzying to sing them, it was crazy!  I've never had that feeling before, it was awesome.
Then I went on a job interview that went really well.
I came home and got ready for tonight and work and then...
I found out I didn't have to work.
KILLED IT.
All productivity gone.  I basically wasted the rest of the day.
TV kills me... Netflix kills me.
So since I didn't have anything to do I wasted the day and now I feel like a bum :(
So I'm reading some Trump and going to bed and just trying not let this feeling get the best of me, hopefully tomorrow is a better day.  Sometimes it's hard to keep GOINGGOINGGOING, and I wish I had something to look forward to.  Yes I have some goals I'm working toward, and it will be AMAZING once I achieve them, but I wish I had a fun trip or visit, something for FUN to look forward too... meh.
Meh meh meh.

Busy Day

It was a busy day!  I went downtown, worked from 1:30-5:30 and then had karate, where we practiced knife fights.  As in, if someone came at us with a knife, how to deflect it and win the fight.  The second set of moves we did was STRAIGHT out of a movie and it was awesome!  I spun around, elbowed my attacker in the stomach, pulled his foot out from under him, flipped him over and punched him in the back of the head.  It rocked!!!!!
Then he practiced it on me... I'm going to be sore tomorrow.

Big day.  Tomorrow's also a big day, voice lesson and job interview.
I'm reading Donald Trump's book "Think Big and Kick Ass" right now.  Very interesting.  Plays on the whole goals/determination/never give up ideas that I always read about, but also talks about how he always gets revenge on people who wrong him and never trusts the people that work for him.  I'm only a few chapters in so we'll see how it goes... All I'm saying is if you have so much style Mr. Trump, what is with the hair?  Seriously.  You design gorgeous buildings can't you see that's not working out?

I wonder what it's going to be like to read this years from now.  I am planning on making it big and then leaving this up so all my fans can read it once I'm a huge star.  That way they can see the process, they can see my thoughts and they can see the work that went into what made me who I am today.
HI CUTE FANS!!!!  I'm writing to you from 2011!!!  Whenever you're reading this I LOVE YOU!!!!  And I'm so grateful for all your support.  Right now I'm sitting in my parent's house in my bed in the basement, with practically no money to my name.  I can see my cat, and I have a space heater on cause it's freezing in here.  My laptop has to be plugged into the wall to operate.  Also, the lid is falling off.  But now, whatever time you're reading this, I'm a big staaaaaaaaaaaar!!!  Well, it didn't start out that way, I worked hard to get where I am.  You can do it to :)
Maybe people will post comments on this and then I can respond to them and they'll be SUPER EXCITED cause I'm chatting.  I promise I'll try to do that fans.  I will do my best :)
I hope this blog is entertaining... maybe people will read it and think I'm boring.  Well nobody is forcing you!  Man.
Don't stop reading though seriously, it'll get good... I think.

So, I'm really enjoying the blogging, I think it's starting to become a habit... like I feel like I don't do it enough but I really do it every day!  Crazy.

Now I'm going to work on some writing.  Wonderland has been shelved, I'm letting it marinate.  Now I'm working on a horror... Oh man it's going to be intense and I'm a little scared to write it but it is a great story and hopefully can be crazy huge like The Blair Witch Project or Paranormal Activity.

Rememberrrrrrrr
Every expert was once a beginner.

Sunday Funday

You know why today was awesome?
Because I DIDN'T HAVE TO WORK!!!!!!!!!!!
Cause in case you didn't know I work six days a week usually.

But that's what you gotta do when you're living the dream.  And I mean I didn't have to go to one of my jobs but I still DID WORK!  That's right, today I posted a ton of more items on my E-bay page, so if you need a violin, a loft with a futon underneath, a flute, a french horn, or a set of bagpipes go CHECK IT OUT.
Anything you spend will go toward my student loan payment/move to L.A. fund!  Sweet!

But really, I slept in today and it was amazing.  No alarm no nothing and I feel good.  Probably cause yesterday I worked for eight hours behind the redemption counter waiting on little kids as they chose between a sucker and a bouncy ball.  Good times.

Today, I chillaxed, baked a new cake recipe which turned out so-so, and saw I Am Number Four which I really enjoyed.  I'm excited that they set up a sequel, very obviously, it was kind of ridiculous, but I would love to see the next one soon... especially since Alex Pettyfer is SO DELICIOUS!!!!

I laughed pretty hard when they told him to lay low in school.  If this beautiful person came to my high school there would be no laying low because he is so yummy.

Also, I get really depressed when I watch a cool movie like that (or X-Men another one of my faves, or Heroes) because I DON'T HAVE POWERS.  Why don't I have powers?  Not fair.  That's why I'm an actress... because I get to play pretend.  Maybe someday I'll get to have sweet powers, even if it's just in the movies.

I have a super huge day tomorrow, I can't wait til my big days consist of going to auditions and callbacks instead of working a bunch of jobs trying to get to L.A.  I feel like I am wasting my time, sometimes it's hard to remember that what I'm doing is all adding up to getting where I want to be.

On a happy note, I have a job interview Tuesday, I have rehearsal for my next film coming up, and I have a voice lesson for a HUGE audition this week.  Gotta focus.

EYES ON THE PRIZE!!!!

MEH.

Some people.
THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO SAY RIGHT NOW!!!!!  But I shouldn't.  I just wish that the mistakes I made didn't eat away at me so much.  Hopefully I'll be better able to get over it soon UGH, but I am so annoyed right now.

What do you do to let things go?
Breathe in the positivity, breathe OUT the negativity!!!!

Whenever shiznit gets me down I try to remember, that the problems of today are usually forgotten tomorrow.  Is this REALLY going to matter 5 years, 1 year, even 6 months from now?  Probably not.
So I just have to keep telling myself that.  It is so easy to say that but sometimes harder to think that.

It happens all the time though.  When you are pursuing a career like acting there are always people that want to support you, but there are usually more people that want to stop you.  For whatever reason, but I think a lot of time it's jealousy.  They see someone striding to take steps to actually follow their dreams and they try to stop it because they are stuck and want everyone to be miserable like they are.  Even people with good intentions can be hurtful, their advice can be a backhanded insult.  If you are trying to pursue a career in acting you will hear so many things like "it's too difficult" "L.A. is too expensive" and of course "get a real job."

I'm sorry, I've never been the kind of person who can just sit in an office and pretend like I don't have something I want to accomplish.  Everything I do is for a reason.  It may look like I'm living at home and working at a random job, but really these are all steps.  I'm acting, I'm writing, I'm working on shows, I'm auditioning and above all I'm saving up every damn penny I get working at the four jobs I hold right now to be able to pack up my van and make the drive to L.A.

Is it going to be easy?  No.  But isn't it more important to struggle for something you believe in than to give in and do something you don't care about?  Whether it's acting, business, writing, dancing, dog walking, or polishing tables.

UH!  So stop trying to bring me down, because that just adds the fuel to my fire to get the heck out of here and show what I can do.
So there.
Snitches.

Ambition

Sometimes I wish that you could just KNOW what was going to happen.  Is all this hard work going to pay off?  Part of me feels like the reason that I'm pursuing an acting career is because I love all the attention.  Is that a bad thing?  But I don't know what else I could do.  I have had so many jobs and it just seems like I don't stay very long at them.  The longest job I've had was for four years, and that was because I worked at the theatre in college.  And even then I usually didn't want to go to work.  When I'm working I want to be at home and when I'm at home I get bored and wish I had something to do.  What kind of messed up person am I?

So I suppose acting gives me something to do.  I don't have the passion or ambition to pursue any other 'great' career, not that what you do isn't great, but I want to be someone significant.  I'm not about to be the President, and I don't feel like working my way up the ladder to a business CEO and I hate sales, so that kills about half the other jobs out there.  The only thing I have really considered other than acting is being a professional organizer.  I love to organize people's stuff.  If you have a cluttered desk or room, let me at it!  I'm good at it too.  Weird.  So maybe someday this blog will turn into me promoting my organizing career.  Crazy.  You never know.  But I'm too good of an actress to give up now.  There's always time to change my mind later.  And right now I've had my sights set on Hollywood for so long it's hard to believe that there is another option.
Is that my crazy ambition talking?  Am I the only person who has set their goals so crazy high?  The truth is, I know that I can do it.  I am 100% sure that I can be a famous actress, that I can comfortably support myself with my acting and that people know me for my talents onscreen and onstage.  Right now the biggest factor in stopping me from jumping headfirst into this crazyness is the money situation.  Seems like that is a big problem for a lot of people.  And so many times I feel crippled by it, but I am doing the best I can to pay those stupid loans off.  Where do you draw the line though?  In order to pay off loans I need a full time job.  In order to advance my career I need to audition and be in movies, even if the roles don't pay.  But you can't be galavanting off to auditions when you're stuck in a 9 to 5.  So that is my dilemma.  But I'm not going to let it bring me down.  I will find a way around this.  That is what ambition is all about.
There are always going to be obstacles in your way no matter what you want to do.  The way that you treat them is going to define whether you make it or not.  Luckily, I have a huge support group because sometimes I am my own worst enemy.  But other times, like today, I feel like saying "fuck it, I can handle those" because WHAT ELSE ARE YOU GOING TO DO?  I WANT to be an actress.  I am MOVING to L.A.  In order to do these things I have to face my huge issues and say "you're not going to stop me."  If I let them then I'm just going to be stuck here forever, sad that I never tried.  You might as well work super hard and fail then just give up.
I hope when I'm feeling down I remember to come back to this.
What is the point of giving up?  There isn't one.  You will just be more miserable giving up than you feel right now thinking of the hard times you had at one point.  If you are being a big baby and whining about how hard it is SUCK IT UP.  Isn't it better to suffer trying to achieve something great than to give up and suffer for the rest of your life because you're stuck doing something that means nothing to you?
SUCK IT UP.
You can doooooooooo it!!!
Nobody said it was easy, they just said it would be worth it.

God I love when I feel like this.  These are the emotions you have to hang on to because sometimes it doesn't feel this easy.  And that is just something I have to deal with, I mean I am an actress after all, my emotions are crazyyyyyy!  Ask my boyfriend, he'll tell you.  That poor kid.

KEEP YO CHIN UP FOOL!

Also, if you ever need inspiration, start a kick ass sport like karate.  Karate rocks my face off and I feel super bad ass whenever I go to class.  I can't wait til I can really kick some booty!!!  Maybe I'll be a martial arts superstar in a movie someday, that would be AWESOME!

:)

Gosh I posted this and then realized I didn't even say how awesome I have been doing yesterday and today, I've been making that money, I FINISHED my first draft of Wonderland, I have called about two jobs, I rocked my karate session, I auditioned, AND I GOT THE PART SNITCHES!!!!!
So yah, I've been kicking ass and taking names.  It's all because I make lists.  You should try it.
Also, people have been checking out the bagpipes.  They are done being for sale in 5 days I'm hoping someone buys them because that is $1,200 in my pocket and that would be awesome toward my goal of paying off that bitch loan of $1,751.00!!!  I'm going to do it!!!  HECK YAHHHHHHHHH CAN YOU FEEL THE INSPIRATION!!!!!!!!
You love it.

Bagpipes!

The bagpipes are officially listed on ebay... so if anyone wants bagpipes please buy them!  That will be $1,200 dollars toward my loan and L.A. fund so I'm hoping they sell!
Click here to see my bagpipes!

Today I accomplished so much although part of me feels like it doesn't advance my acting career, but my biggest obstacle right now is my money situation and once that is removed hopefully it is smoother sailing.

It is amazing what you can do when you wake up and get your butt out of bed.  I am setting my alarm and not sleeping in even though I don't have to work until 2:30pm every day... meh...  haha, so I'm proud of myself for getting up!  Today I listed the bagpipes, worked on getting a new job, practiced my runway walk, got someone to cover part of my shift, and requested motivational material on CD to listen to in the car.  I figured that is a lot of time spent that could be put to good use, and what better way than to motivate myself?

After working a few hours a came home exhausted and made myself pancakes.  Just so you know I STINK at making pancakes!  I am terrible at it.  I'm practicing though and these were actually edible.  Anyone got pancake making tips?

POOPED I am pooped.  That's good though because today was another productive day.  And tomorrow will be too, I have a good feeling about it :)
It's all about attitude!  Audition tomorrow and then karate!!!  What an exciting day!!  I'M PUMPED BRING IT ON!!!!

Can You Keep Up

Destiny's Child... Can you keep up?  Make me lose my breath?
I LOVE Beyonce, she is such an amazing role model, successful and not crazy like most celebrities.

I was wondering who could keep up with me today in karate class, I was kicking BOOTY!!!  And it felt so good.  We did ground work tonight and practiced falls and kicks from the ground.  We also did defensive work and it was awesome.  Not only is karate an awesome workout, but everything I'm learning will come in handy for acting and for life in general.  Knowing how to beat off someone isn't going to hurt!

Today was an amazing day and I am exhausted.  I got up early and applied at two restaurants and then went to my first job for a few hours (where I built an awesome snowman... workout!) and then went to my other job for a few hours.  Came home for twenty minutes and then went to a community theatre board meeting for an hour and then hurried off to karate.  I am pooped!  But I am happy because today was super productive and that feels great.

Auditioning this Wed. and this Sun.!  And practicing my runway walk, oh man, my legs are sore from karate so that is not fun.

Keep smiling :) life is all about your attitude!  You get what you give!

It's who you know...

You know what they say, it's not what you know it's who you know.  That is why I am grateful to the Michigan Film Reel because they hold a networking event the first Sunday of every month, where you can meet fellow actors and actresses, crew, directors, and producers.  Pretty much every aspect of the film industry.  Tonight I brought along my good friend Danielle, a fellow actress, and we worked the crowd.  Handed out some resumes, business cards, and headshots and showed our faces.
A tip for networking--film people love black.  If you're on crew you usually wear black at shoots.  Must be a natural thing for us, but if you want to stick out wear COLOR!  I wore a red shirt tonight and Danielle an orange and we were the only people wearing color in the whole room, what a great conversation starter and way to stick out!

Afterwards we made a quick appearance at the Mr. Spookity Film Festival, but the first short was... slower moving, to say the least, and we were hungry so we ducked out early which is good because I am exhausted.

As for yesterday, I had a great day with my adorable boyfriend baking a cake, playing board games, and going to the movies.  Sometimes you need a break...  I guess the way I advanced my career was by inspiring myself by watching a great movie The Adjustment Bureau!!!  MATT DAMON AND EMILY BLUNT LOOOOVE they were so good, great chemistry and very believable and I loved the script, very interesting.  Awesome movie I would totally recommend you go see it!  I love Matt Damon, he is so solid and super cute!  Haha.

Tomorrow is looking to be a busy day I am hoping to apply for some waitressing jobs and maybe go on a secret shop and earn some money.  And I'm testing in karate class so that is going to be scary!
Someone needs to make sure I practice my runway walk because I'm pretty sure I look awkward like a newborn giraffe and that's not going to book me any jobs.

Beauty sleep time!
Did you floss your teeth tonight?  Get a step ahead of the lazy actors! ;)

Sleep is Necessary

You always hear about celebrities who say they don't sleep cause they are busy working.  And I say they are crazy.
Get your sleep, it helps you look pretty.
Today I wrote a whole bunch of Wonderland and then saw Harry Potter 7, which made me tear up, even though it was the second time... That is why I make movies, why I act, and why I write.  To change emotions, to turn the world upside down, and to make believe even if it is only for a few hours.
Any movie that changes your emotions, makes you feel and think, is worth making and watching.  What movies move you?
I loooove Marie Antoinette, Kirsten rocks my world in it and I've watched it a billion times, but the critics and the public weren't too fond... if it means something to you, don't let anyone change that!!!!
I <3 movies!
Go to sleep now, it is okay, sleep is awesome!
Audition tomorrow :) making moves... Go act!

Ups and Downs

Being an actress isn't easy.  You never know what is coming next.  Filming, traveling, auditions... the schedule can get chaotic.  And trying to work and balance your life can make you crazy.  You have to take it one day at a time.  I have been actively pursuing a career in film for less than a year now and I've already had many times where I "called it quits" and given up... although I guess you can say my career has been in progress since I was 7 years old, the first time I got onstage.  Once it's been in your blood that long, there is no way you can abandon it.  Acting is a part of me and I love it.
So even when it's tough, keep going.

Today was good though.  I am working on Wonderland and it is coming along, I'm hopefully going to have a rough draft soon!  That will be a great accomplishment, I'm hoping to get it picked up and published, then every time somebody performs my show I will get royalities!  I'm not going to complain about money coming in.  Hopefully Wonderland can help fund my move to L.A., which is set for this September.  If I want to be serious about acting I have to take some serious steps, so that is the plan for now.

I also applied for a new job today as a Secret Shopper.  So far it seems like most jobs you get $15 for completing and can easily do a few a day.  Secret Shopping could be my secret to success!  And pay my bills, thank goodness!  We'll see... so far I'm too scared to actually pick up a job.  Maybe I will within the next week... meh...

My parents think I should keep my bagpipes.  Ryan thinks I should sell them... an easy $1,000 if they get sold.  I haven't played in four years, and I'm torn.  It seems like a big piece of me to give away!  So I'm going to sleep on it again... any advice is appreciated.  Am I famous enough to auction them off and make thousands of dollars?  Not yet?  Meh!

It's Jersey Shore night!  Ryan's here so I'm not making him sit through it, that will just give me something to look forward to for when he's gone.  I hope you all are fist pumping though!

To be an actress you have to act!  I'm auditioning this Saturday, are you?
:)

Amazing Grace and Scotland the Brave

I can play the bagpipes.
Well, I used to play-about four years ago.  I played all through high school with two other girls, and at the time it was fun, but I don't think I took it to seriously.  Now I am revisiting my musical past because, as you know, it is my goal to pay off my $1,751.00 loan this month and I thought if I could sell them I could get about $1,000 for my bagpipes.
But I can still play them.
It has been four years and although I am rusty I can definitely still play pretty well.  This is only on the practice chanter (you can practice on a "recorder" and not actually play the whole set of pipes) so I really have no idea what condition my bagpipes are in or if I could still play them.  But now I am wondering if I should sell them or start back up playing because A) it is hard to sell bagpipes, not a big market for them B) I might be able to make some money playing Amazing Grace at special events and that could be more profitable in the long run and C) that might look really awesome on my acting resume!
Plus I kind of miss playing an instrument
Dang it.

So not only did I NOT sell anything today, but now I am thinking about adding another activity to my plate.  This is what happens as a working actress, I have to figure out what will make me the most money or get me the most auditions... possibly bagpipes.  What do you think?  Should I keep them?

On another note, I finally got my Gi today, aka my karate uniform!  And I have my first test on Monday, the first 3 basics and if I do good then I get a black stripe on my belt.  So I'm nervous, and excited, and I have to practice.

I also booked an audition next week for a charity runway show.  I have no modeling experience, and I have to show them my best runway walk.  Oh goodness, the things I get myself into... Hopefully I do well!

But you know if you want to be an actress you have to act and to act you have to... AUDITION!!!

What did you do today to advance your acting career?

Can you answer that question?

Today I practiced a monologue...
[tis such fools as you that makes the world full of ill favor'd children]
Name that play!

And created a calendar of events for the month that will help me reach my monthly goal.
My goal for March is to pay of my smallest student loan, which means earning $1,751.00 by March 31st.  Eek!  But it must be done.  Today I worked for a few hours which means I am $27.50 closer to my goal... cross your fingers.

And finally, I am working on my most recent play, Wonderland.  I'm putting Alice and her friends into a 60 minute kid show that I'm hoping will be joyful and fun.  Fun to watch and fun to be in.  Right now I'm in character mode, writing out their outfits, their motivations, and what they can do onstage to make kids laugh.  I am following some great advice given to me by a good acting friend "any kids show has to have a spit-take."  I'm thinking March Hare or the Hatter can be spitting out his tea.  The kids will giggle for that!

I also started this blog today, how productive.
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Remember to be an actress you have to act!  Go audition!